This week was a bit of a struggle mentally for me. I think it was my body telling me that I’m overworking myself and need to take a step back. No more super long shifts for Yanie, I have to learn to pace myself and take breaks. Too many times I have caught myself eating during my lunch break. It’s called a break for a reason, I have to remember this. Plus, if I overwork myself constantly, the work I produce won’t be good and no one wants shitty work.
Tuesday was a struggle for me so I told myself to take it super easy with the workload and start fresh on Wednesday. Hopped on a quick call and did some work but I made sure to spend the rest of the day relaxing, and setting myself straight so I won’t let myself reach this point again. It’s all a learning experience, and I have to get myself back on track and in the work routine. I’ve spent too long not working. I’m not used to a workload again, especially remote, but as time goes on I’ll get the hang of it and figure out what works best for me. I hit a bit of a bump in the road with a client as the work I produced was not what was expected so I spent the day trying to figure it all out. I felt bad as I feel like I failed the client, but we are all learning as we go along with this project, I just have to tell myself that it won’t be perfect the first time.
I spent the rest of the week working on a bunch of content writing tasks. I need to be careful with taking on a lot of various content tasks though because I’m afraid I’ll burn out and end up disliking it, which I do not want as I am enjoying it thus far. I went from not having a lot to do to an overwhelming amount of work in less than 24 hours. Stressful times alright but I organised myself and got to it. What I find hardest though is taking on a bunch of new tasks but then having to put them all on pause before even starting them to work on something else. I feel bad as I said I’d do the other tasks but can’t do them quite yet. I don’t like feeling like I’m making people wait for me. Frankly, I’m just too hard on myself, I need to cut it out and know that people won’t kill me as long as I update them with my work.
Like the previous Wednesdays, I hit the gym as a way to clear my head and right now with everything going on it’s really the only thing I have going on consistent in my life. It was a struggle getting there as I was super lazy in the morning but once I got there it felt great. Also! The next morning I wasn’t as sore as the previous weeks so progress! Unfortunate though at the same time as rumour has it London will be going back on lockdown which means no more gym. I will just have to get the routines so I can do them at home. I need to make sure that I actually do them too and not just tell myself!
Thursday I had my performance review with Federica which went well thankfully! All good news, a nice breeze and casual conversation. Per usual, I asked to sign myself up for more work. I seriously need help haha. I’m too curious but I keep forgetting how much I already have on my plate and need to do. I want to help others and learn, but I have to remember, I’m only one person too. I have to learn how to take it one step at a time.
Spent Friday taking a crack at all the new tasks I had, writing, training videos, meetings, and of course the team meeting, which is always fun! This weekly update sounds super depressing. I know haha, it wasn’t horrible. I can promise you that, just a small rough patch. As I said before though, it’s all a learning experience, and as time goes on, I’ll learn what’s best for me and my work schedule, but no more 10 hour shifts! Absolutely maddening.